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Name: Jocelyn
Gender: Female
Interests: Learn piano, travel the world, learn as much as i can, and try my best. SUCCEED IN LIFE!
Expertise: making people laugh? doing silly things, what else? laughing at the world! BWHAHAHAHA!
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Member Since:
12/20/2003
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| Spring Break! WOO HOO
Brief planned schedule of spring break (from student council... sorry. I procrastinate MAJOR)
Tuesday: Movie theatres
Wednesday: Trip to Gilroy outlets, and then Monterey tour and Pebble Beach
Thursday: Movies @ school
Friday: Trip to Quarry Lakes: Water "Fight" (KC said we couldn't use fight, since we're a Buddhist school... LOL), football, group activities, etc.
Yeap So if anyone wants to come, go ahead, more the merrier! : )
Dood.. so on Sunday after dropping Daniel off @ Davis and then Steb at the Airport, I went to eat with me parents. And then mom ordered this chinese herbal soup with Sui Yu, which is translated directly as Water Fish. So... we drank it and it had this weird meat substance in it. (I'm usually vegetarian, I do eat meat on rare occasions, like family or friend outings) It wasn't fish, since fish have thin bones, but it had a chunky bone with a weird shell to it. When we observed the pattern of the the shell.... it was none other than... TURTLE! I can't believe I ATE A TURTLE!!! POOR POOR POOR CUTE TURTLE. WTH MAN! WHY THEY SAY WATER FISH WHEN TURTLE ISN'T EVEN A FISH!!!!.................
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| Weird.
Things have been... well, not perfect to say the least. How my grandma has been doing... isn't going so well. I'm not going to go in-depth of the whole situation, but just my view on it I guess.
Times are getting short. As we get older, our string of life gets thinner and thinner. I guess I can say I'm pretty fortunate since my family has been around me for so long. Of course, there are bitter memories and arguments (arguments off the "wazoo"), but we've always been together. Now we all don't live together, but we still keep in contact.
When my grandma first went to the hospital, I didn't really feel anything. At first I thought that I wasn't been grateful or appreciative enough of my grandma, but I realized that that wasn't the case. It was because I believed she was going to get better. You might say its denial, that there's a strong denial that's she's ever going to go away. She's always been around. I can't imagine her not around. It's just.... weird.
My grandma was always there for me since I was born. She always told me of how she washed me in the sink of the kitchen when I was just a baby. That's how small I was. She gave me porridge with steamed veggies when I was young, since she didn't know what baby food was. She tells me that I have so much hair, yet when I was young, I was quite bald. She bought me my first collected stuffed animal, a Raccoon on display during one of the Chinese New Year's parties, that wasn't on sale. I didn't want anything else but that. And she got it for me. She even helped me make clothes for it. She used to shower me with kisses and hugs when I was little, and thought little of them. She used to give me hot milk when I couldn't fall asleep. She'd stay up late (know it was bad for her), but gave the comfort of knowing she'll be awake to help you. She spoiled me (off the "wazoo") despite me disliking it. She always knew what kinds of food I liked, and cooked them for me. Etc....etc....etc......
Grandma is a nun now, and I am proud of her. I accept her decision, as long as she's happy.
Grandma got worse in the last year, and still, I always thought she would get better. But times are getting rough. A lot of other things have been bugging me too. Perhaps it is now, almost three in the morning, in Seattle, reading manga, that I realize how much she means to me. I just finished reading a short manga, and it left me crying. Stuff that's been left inside had been released. (Luckily mom fell asleep on the bed...)
Here's the link to those who want to read it. I do hope you guys can read it. It has given me a stronger motivation to do as much as I can to help her in anyway. This is a lot on my grandma only. But there's a lot on my grandpa as well. However, that's probably for another time sometime, somewhere.
http://www.onemanga.com/White_Clouds/0/
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“Don’t tell her I said so,
but your mother is wrong.” She turned back to the sun. “It’s really hard to do
nothing totally. Even just sitting here, like this, our bodies are churning,
our minds are chattering. There’s a whole commotion going on inside us.”
“That’s bad?” I said.
“It’s bad if we want to know
what’s going on outside ourselves.”
“Don’t we have eyes and ears
for that?”
She nodded. “They’re okay
most of the time. But sometimes they just get in the way. The earth is speaking
to us, but we can’t hear because of all the racket our senses are making.
Sometimes we need to erase them, erase our senses. Then-maybe-the earth will
touch us. The universe will speak. The stars will whisper.”
(Stargirl, Chp. 17, pg. 91)
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| Surpakmakalakamomo! So... what's been going on the past few days?
1.) Thinking about what few people said, to improve myself. Don't close the gates to paths that I haven't tried. The world is possibilities, and I still want to try as much as I can. Fly Jojo Fly!
2.) Practice practice practice!!!!! No hippity hoppity. = / Next time next time! I still want to get the younger kids in it..... Rawr!
3.) I was just thinking of Yellow team in summer camp. They did phantom of the opera for their last performance. I feel so gullible. Wahah
4.) Listening to old songs... I don't know why, but they just really make me happy.
And Forever
From Big O Girl: Sometimes I feel so all alone Finding myself callin' your name Boy: When we're apart, so far away Hopin' it's me that you're thinkin' of Girl: Could it be true, could it be real? Both: My heart says that you're the one. Boy: There's no one else, you're the only one for me. Both: Yes, this time my love's the real thing. Both: Never felt that love is so right. The world seemed such an empty place. We need someone we could give our all. Baby, it's you, we'll be together now and forever. Girl: Could it be true, (Boy: yes it’s true) could it be real? Both: My heart says that you're the one. Boy: There's no one else, you're the only one for me. Both: Yes, this time my love's the real thing. Both: Never felt that love is so right. The world seemed such an empty place. We need someone we could give our all. Baby, it's you, we'll be together now and forever. Both: Never felt that love is so right. The world seemed such an empty place. We need someone we could give our all. Baby, it's you, we'll be together now and forever. It's a relatively cheesy song (I've seen better love songs) but I just like the way it sounds. Happy Valentines Day.
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| Just review a few things in the last week:
1.) I was watching this thing on the Chinese channel (grandpa watches it all the time) about them trying to break a bunch of guinness world records. So they have a quick show of some shaolin practitioners (obviously, they weren't bald enough to be shaolin monks. I mean, come on, what kind of monk has hair?) doing some stunts. And the leader came out to break a guiness world record. He was breaking bowls with his fingers. First few thoughts that ran into my head:
a.) Cool, he's breakin' bowls with a frickin' finger.
b.) WTF. what a waste of bowls
c.) How amusing. I want to make a guinness world record doing something so incredibly random. Breakin' bowls. Woo Hoo!
2.) Went to the Alameda Youth Leadership, and we visited the police department and stuff. It was pretty cool, and I never knew they got their dogs from Germany. We got to see the dog jump and bite someone's arm (the arm was protected. I know, sucks right? JK.) There was also the bomb squad, and they deactivate bombs and stuff. They supposedly wear 130 lb. Unfortunately they have to do detailed hand work so if the bomb explodes, they'll be okay, but they'll be handless.
3.) There's a billion more things to say, and it's late, and I can really think of much at the moment.
Things Needed:
4.) Less assumptions. It just makes people sad.
5.) Less dishonesty. It makes me sad. (Haha, don't confuse it saying less dishonest makes me sad. I'm meaning dishonest makes me sad)
6.) Sun. People are so grumpy. Sheesh.
7.) Don't know how to name this one. Basically Dr.Dee viewed our PSAT scores and found that the major I picked was Graphics Design. Considering my grades aren't horrible, she said she was "surprised." Told me that art was a hard area to get a job, and to find something else. Thinking I could do something else. I hear that a lot. But can you try to fit a square into a circle shaped hole? (Cliche, but it fits)
Meh... Oh! Did you know, Kurosaki Ichigo isn't number one in popularity in Bleach?! My goshies! Hitsugaya is 1st, that short white-haired punk. Rukia's in second. I don't know if any of you really care about this. But POWER TO THE SHORT PEOPLE. : )
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